1. |
mr.pissed
02:50
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Wanna hurt you in the ways you know
Wanna be there with you like some ghost
Over your shoulder a shadow in the past
I was ready for the future but i wasn’t built to last.
Oh no, oh no, oh no.
Expired like the food that’s living in your fridge
Hopeless in the idea of moving on
I wanna change I wanna be who i am
But im so haunted by the past by what i have done
That ive done nothing
Oh no, oh no, oh no.
Taking pills and im changing my name
Haven't told dad that i'm not the same as I was
Here was just in town but only getting gas
Maybe i'll send him a letter but it might be the last
Im so scared
Oh no, oh no, oh no.
I told myself only the things i need
I cut my arms just to watch me bleed
I dont know what i deserve its not this
I wanna wake up more happy mr.pissed
Oh no, oh no, oh no.
Im getting what i want.
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2. |
faaith
02:40
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calling on friends but im coming up short
calling on family for some support
dont know how ive been
dont know how im doing
got so much to get done
guess i gotta get to it
i dont wanna feel this anymore...
dont have much since i dont have faith
seems like you need it for hope these days
things are looking bad but cant feel any worse
taking my pills to break this curse
i dont wanna feel this anymore...
the highs and the lows
all the things that we can be
time we wasted at work
40 hours making money
when i say that i love you
dont you know that i mean it
making all of these messes
and ill be sure to clean it
ill be sure to clean it.
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3. |
hatchet
03:04
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somethings calling
summers coming to a swift end
cant go on
drawing lines in the sand
bury the hatchet
watch the fall come swift and clean
wash away the sins
from the father unto the childrens upbringing
holding onto
some piece of the puzzle I cant grasp
pulling straws
haunting memories of a past
that I cant remember
drowning pain in liquid gold
head out the window
moving towards the winters cold
maybe theres some hope
buried in places behind the brick
praying to a casket
or whatever they say is left
I hope for forgiveness
there was a time when i lost my way
the words only mean so much
when you have nothing good left to say.
I cant be alone
because I cant even breathe
I spend every moment
trying to be exactly what you need.
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4. |
try
03:24
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I wanna watch shitty tv with you
I wanna wake up and do whatever is you want to
I wanna make shitty dinner with you
Wanna hear all about youre day and every word you have to say
I wanna take silly pictures with you
I wanna forget all of the bullshit and i know that this is worth it
I wanna watch bad movies with you
We can waste away all day as long as you are next to me i am okay.
And when im feeling down on myself
Just to hear that things are fine and i will be better in time
Ill apologize for whatever you want
I know that its been hard but i just want to be a part
Of your life.
I wanna watch you go to sleep
I want to hear about your dreams.
I know you try.
And know i try
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5. |
o.t.p
03:00
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One trick pony
I see you in my dreams
One trick pony
You can’t learn anything
One trick pony
Take my voice and sing
One trick pony
Oh please just make me bleed
One trick pony
You’ll find yourself one day
One trick pony
You should run away…
One trick pony
There’s nothing left to say
One trick pony
Can't leave but you can’t stay
One trick pony
Make a choice it’s time
One trick pony
Time to adapt or die.
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6. |
destroyer
03:54
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I wanna eat this earth
destroy the good and the bad
erase all of the hatred
and every trace of the past
im so sorry
I hate this feeling
just want a break
destroyer, destroyer
im so sorry
i hate this feeling
I just wanna end it all
destroyer, destroyer
I want this to be the last time
how do I beat the curse that's stuck in my head
how many pills do I have to take
before there is nothing left
im so sorry
I hate this feeling
just want to end it all
destroyer, destroyer
im so sorry
I hate this feeling
just wanna end it all
destroyer, destroyer
sing me a sweet song
sing me to sleep
tell me things will be better
when I'm awake in the morning
can't I have a new body
cant I be someone else
I cant do this all again
im here destroying myself
tell me all the good things
you can see in my eyes
read my all of the cards
tell me how I might die.
i wanna go back to when
i didnt know you existed
when things could be easy
but instead its persistent
these hands together
pray to something above
just wanna know theres a place
where anything can be loved
nothings going the right way
still someplace i cant be
wanna forget who i am
and fucking end everything.
im so sorry
I hate this feeling
just want to end it all
destroyer, destroyer
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7. |
daughter
03:12
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holding out hands
fill them up with the holy water
faking like i understand
truly am my mothers daughter
but its christmas time again
and ive been bad
ive done some bad
dont i know it
ive been bad
ive been bad
lord knows it
and he shows it...
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8. |
wolf
04:34
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call me when youre getting over
all the things we used to do
the name that you would call when youre down
the one who said theyd always love you
cause its been a couple years now
and i guess that things have changed
still have the heart that i was born with
the person i am is still the same.
everybody is a wolf
everybody falls apart
i know that i am no better
just feel like i didnt start
feeling anything at all
feeling what its like to live
only took a whole lifetime
now i gotta live the rest of it
tell me when youre feeling let down
know im gone when you get home
still sit around and wait till sun up
to pick up the fucking phone
might be different than you remember
but i still love all of the same dumb shit
hear the call of a shameful past
moving further away from it
everybody is a wolf
and nobody is to blame
i know that i am no better
cant move on from all of the shame
praying to feel something
praying to wake up as me
i was a kid laying in bed
i knew the future was calling
everybody is a wolf
everybody is to blame
i know that i am no better
cant move on from all of the shame
praying to feeling something
praying to wake up as me
i was a kid lying in bed
i knew the future was calling.
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9. |
taking
03:54
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clocking in for the longest shift this week
got so much to do got the dishes and laundry
ive been going for so long its been a while
ive been looking for who ive become
see it in a smile
things get better and things can change
taking pieces want to rearrange
im a new human being
and i have all of these feelings
taking over me.
theyre taking over me...
figuring out just what to wear
the worlds so fucked up and i get scared
of walking out the door im always looking in
im stuck inside and im always thinking...
theyre taking over me
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10. |
boyhood
04:26
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im looking back
at how i spent those days
blacking out
a sea of glasses in front of me
and were all laughing but im crying
on the inside i cant stand
im collapsing into her arms
before falling into bed again and again...
i got old friends
but i dont hear them calling me anymore
dont know who i am
a couple do and im keeping them around
cause i cant stand the loneliness
that ive been feeling
i cant stand
punching holes in the wall till i get to the ceiling
im not feeling
quite the same
im fearful of
every last fucking thing
cause ive done some bad things
cause ive done things i regret
like writing all those words
all the things ive ever said
the lies that i told
and the shitty things i did
in plain sight to relive them over again
its boyhood
its just boyhood
its just boyhood
youre growing into a man
its boyhood
its just boyhood
its just boyhood
youre growing into a man
push it deep down
push it deep down
dont let it come out
dont let it come out
push it deep down
push it deep down
dont let it come out
dont let it come out
its just boyhood
pranks
the dumb things we regret
adolescence
pubescence
i was making mistakes that i cant forget.
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11. |
happy
02:26
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i wanna swallow your heart
eat it up into pieces
till your skin is my skin
and your eyes are my eyes
wanna see how you see
well try then well try.
i wanna take all your love
feel it down in my core
till your hate is my hate
and your blood is my blood
wanna see how you are
go from the start
i would die a million deaths
just for another few minutes
where we lie hand in hand
just wanna understand
how does this story finish?
happy endings are always bumming me out
never ending on a realistic portion of doubt
wish i could relate
wish i was that girl
so fucked up at the start but then gets the whole world...
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12. |
bouquet
01:52
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I wanna sit with you
On a front porch
Forget an anniversary
Because it’s been so fucking long
I wanna pet our cats
Meet all of your friends
Visit your parents
Feeling your skin
I want to be happier
And I hope you want that to
I wanna see you succeed
In whatever it is you do
Wanna see us get a dog
Dressing up to get a drink
Catching a bouquet
At a friends wedding.
I wanna stay with you
Tell me not to leave
Ill do whatever you say
Wearing a heart on my sleeve
I wanna stay with you
Tell me not to go
Watch the calendar hang itself
While we grow old.
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13. |
good boy
03:50
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My mother said do what you will and its fine
and father says "life is easy if you stay dead inside"
Get a job and keep it on track
Pay your bills ready for an attack
Build a wall and keep it stacked high
Give it a good ol' american try
Be thankful for being alive
And you’ll be a good boy living a good life.
My mother by saddened by the news
My father wants to think that it ain’t true
I guess i'm finally seeing the truth
Living with a set of my own virtues
I learned from the things you said
I tried doing just what you did
Sorry that you had a fucked up kid
Took 29 years not to feel like shit
My sister didn’t know what to say
My friends took the news real great
Got support from the one that I love
But I feel like shit over what it brought up
I’m trying so hard to be good
Going to bed when I should
And the days bleed into the nights
And we can’t turn these wrongs into rights.
we cant turn the wrongs into rights
be a good boy living a good life.
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