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frontin
02:04
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I know that I can't go so I'm running
I know that im getting old just frontin
hope to god that its fine im tripping
fucking people wanna die try living
im trying living
I know I've been wrong making all of it up
try to find where I belong but im fucking it up
staring out to watch the wind as it blows in the trees
I just need to be okay im trying everything
im trying everything
nothings working
its not working out...
im just feeling kinda down
im just feeling bad
other times im okay
sometimes im just sad
its hard walking out the door
its hard getting dressed
who will I please today
performing until death
im performing...
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garden
03:54
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here I am making dinner at 11pm again
spend my nights wide awake and my mornings sleeping in
how do I find the right words cowardice has run its course
and I said all my prayers but I cant help but feel remorse
maybe god would answer if I showed penance and kneeled
but I know he's not out there its in the silence I feel
its in the silence I feel
and its all so unreal
now there's three men in the corner
and all eyes are on me
feel god in this chilis
she's saying on tv
hiding bags under my eyes
and a stash of fitting clothes
wanna feel pretty
wanna feel less alone
my mother says she loves me
my father I don't know
haven't spoken in years
I hope he's well and lets this go
and I've been painting my eyes
running red over these lips
never felt like myself
until I shed that skin
like a snake in the garden
I am the snake in the garden.
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body
03:43
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there's a place that you can run to
where all your dreams might come true
and all the things you said you couldn't do
fade away
there's a place where we know your name
everything will stay the same
but your body it might change
and its okay
oh god its happening to me
thought I was watching the tv
god its happening to me
thought I was looking at a screen
god its happening to me
I feel like I'm finally happy
god its happening to me
amidst the death so calming...
there's a place where I can be
hold myself up and feel free
away from all of the bad things
kept me from some sort of peace
yeah I guess I made this bed
full of thorns, rose petal red
cutting deep into this skin
let myself be born again
oh god its happening to me
thought I was watching the tv
god its happening to me
im looking up from the screen
god its happening to me
I finally feel something
god its happening to me
I see your face
im screaming.
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miss
02:54
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yesterdays pot of coffee
dirty clothes
dirty laundry
standing as tall as I can
somewhere between anxiety and bullshit
im falling
ive fallen
getting screamed at by some stranger
forgot how much these words hurt
drown it out to take it in
wanna disappear into the nothing.
I call you out once
tell you no twice
saying im wrong
but I know that im right.
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h2f
04:54
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kill me
maybe its what we just need
change my name till it just feels right
and all bad things fade from memory
can you save me
cause pentagrams and black masses
sure ruined all my fucking chances
hate me over broken promises
from last year
they feel so god damn clear to me.
tell me one last time
that everything is fine
jumping in with open arms
im finally finding my way
reading letters never sent
I didn't care about happiness
but when I did
I wouldn't give it up for the god damn world
do you remember walking home?
long nights drinking?
remember praying?
do you remember the feeling?
remember feeling so alone
im so sick and broken i can't breathe
the coffin this dead space when im gone will I sleep
alone still, your warm heart is right here next to me
the warm blood in this cold heart, feels like death in me
im crying im restless im hoping you get this
I've been suffering here maybe I am happy somewhere
some other place in memory
a place where I don't have to grieve
over shit from the past
over shit im happy to forget
im happy to forget
the person I was
im happy to move on
see who ill become
im smiling
and happy
I can't breathe
the life I was scared
is finally fufilling
this cold heart
with something
it was always missing
it was always missing out
im crying
im careless
im hoping you hear this
confession for my sins
I can't believe I was hiding
behind the things I couldn't see
being the things I thought were me
behind the face that I can't stand
behind someone
behind that man...
behind the things I couldn't see
behind the things I thought were me.
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