smiling and sad

from smiling and sad by Efficax

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lyrics

he spoke to me
she said my name
her voice so soft
didn't sound the same
the air was thin
I am to blame
just a memory
filling you with shame

over everything

I hate this skin
I hated those clothes
I know who I am
more than I thought id know
she feels these things
I tell her to go
the angel in my head
bleeding out in the snow

see through her eyes
fill me up with doubt
im taking these pills
im running around
I hope I grow
into the woman I am
I want to be
alive and glad

smiling and sad

(I hate that I need it
I hate that I can't leave it)

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from smiling and sad, released April 12, 2022
Elle

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