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angel burning
02:04
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sit and talk
the bedroom feels intimate
say a prayer
wish I didn’t give a shit
i guess I’ll just leave
again with a god bless and goodbye
but im thinking of you
and all the things I wish I didn’t hide
i feel like I have to
push it all deep down inside
ive never been real
with anything I just give up and die.
i don’t wanna stand by
i don’t wanna feel this
wish I could go back
tell myself ill fix it
but now there’s no point
but instead im in tears
lying in bed alone
whenever you’re not here
but you know I get it
wanna tell you my prayers
how I spend my time
how ill be better next year
and im writing all these songs
so i can put it into words
maybe it’ll be the piece
to break this fucking curse
hold my secrets like a burden
an angel burning
hold my secrets like a burden
an angel burning
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routine
02:57
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i could use something for the pain tonight
mix my pills with beer hope im alright
i need to say it but im scared and nervous
i wonder what youll say if we will share a kiss
im tired of feeling so low
not much further left to sink that i can go
spend nights up crying in bed
running away to escape what i did...
i go over it again and again
so scared of losing you if only as a friend
i confuse my feelings with thoughts of love
maybe they were true but i dont know how to trust
so instead ill say my goodnights and a prayer
know that when you wake up ill still be here
see you tomorrow or the day after that
cause i spend all my time
hoping youll see i can
care about something other than myself
you know im trying but i could just fucking melt
off the skin get down to the bone
waiting for you to say how you feel so i can just get home
just get home
just get home
just get...
and ill sleep on the floor
i cant take much more
wanna know what its like
to live a happy life
and ill try if i will
build it up just to spill
i was lost then was found
but i cant stick around
i cant stick around...
on monday im just waiting
spend tuesday just praying
by wednesday ill see you
thursday wishing id have been true
friday think maybe its the time
saturday feels like it might be right
sunday im scared and nervous
then do it over again.
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picture
01:52
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in a picture i was laughing
which is not like me at all
thought id wake up from a lock screen
thought that maybe you would call
always looking for a 555
and i wanna live but still wanna die
crushing in my head all the things i cant control
such a fucking mess feel like im in free fall
in a picture i was crying
which is just like me to do
thought id fuck up my life
just for a laugh or two
laughing in the kitchen
walking down the road
saw your breath come out
like cigarette smoke
in a picture i was happy
which is not like me at all
say ill call you tomorrow
but instead im punching holes in a fucking wall
in a picture i was missing
which is just like me to do
cause im spending all my time
dreaming up a life but couldnt leave my room.
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seasons
01:20
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pray to save me from this hell
where I keep finding myself
pray to forget and forgive
so I can get what I wanted
but its time for me to go
wake you up and end the show
the week starts all over again
full of nerves and so much promise
hate the time again
a season changes and I am the same
i wish that I could disappear
into you but it’s just a game
i’ll always lose I’ll never win
tell myself again and again
that I’m trading in all the old skin
a pound of flesh for all my sins.
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