i can still feel the barrel
pushing into my head
its been 12 years
thought it'd go away but instead
its a stupid thought
in the back of my mind
whatever happened to moving on
with time...

im haunted
im haunting
the past keeps running up on me

cant help all the sadness
and the nights alone
im pushing people away
cause of a debt i owe
i never prayed for forgiveness
only that it would change
shouldve known better
than to expect anything

cause i shouldve known that its never gonna well
so many crosses to bear, a faggot at the motel
finally ran out of time and lies to sell
except a picture of happiness
to some lost fucking soul
i hope it brings some peace
because its taking its toll

im haunted
im haunting
the past keeps such a hold on me

can you tell me that its alright and im okay
because i feel it all starting to crush me
going out of my head this fucking anxiety
but i gotta get dressed up to please
ive been praying for hope and ive been praying for change
but the sins of the flesh can take the fucking blame
getting lost in the mirror
loving who i see
some girl
on the computer screen
and theyre saying a name
its one i dont know
taking me places
that i didnt want to go
its hard to deny
all the pleasure and pain
ive been without it
and i felt like nothing

im haunted
im haunting
the past keeps such a hold on me

im haunted
im haunting
the past keeps running up on me.