1. |
d.s. (redux)
01:36
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in my room drinking wine
drunk i think about it all of the time
trying to find reasons to give up and give in
cant stand the burden of starting again.
if you should go then you should go
if i can stay i hope ill stay
theres just so much left unsaid
when were alone and i dont know what to say
a little bit younger
little bit older
hoping that the town bleeds us away
i wanna kiss you
but i just miss you
when we arent okay after everything.
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2. |
break feat. Mazzy Ghost
03:51
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little junebird
slipping away
watching everything you had
get washed away
corner store whore
a fitting name for the night
with broken smokes
for a nicotine high
beauty queen cam show
looking real good
got the guys begging for her
like she knows they should
broken down pick up
metaphor for the week
cant get anywhere
but got places to be
got places to be
but nothing comes free
got places to be
but cant even be me
got places to be
but nothing comes free
got places to be
but i cant even be me
so whats the point of this thing
little junebird
shes looking real sad
watching life pass by
on a tv set
shithead kids
sneaking away
screaming from the car
whatever they wanna say
got a guy talking shit
and hes saying hes weird
but he said he wants to fuck me
and i guess i dont care
she said that its over
i thought i could solve it
cant break every bone
but i can break every promise.
it doesnt feel the same
didnt have the means to work it out
so we can change
its too late
time just floats on by
i forget what it was like
while you wasted all my time
easy to see right through
cant ease my mind
I tried to
cut you loose
i cut off ties
hang tight
so you dont talk
so afraid to get it wrong
nothing comes free
seems like you got places to be
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3. |
rain
02:48
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i remember blue skies they were making way for rain
tell me what you want so i dont throw it all away
watching movies late night curled up on a couch
now im getting tired after figuring it out
sometimes it feels good
sometimes it feels bad
try to see the bright side
but sometimes im just too sad
i just wanna look nice
i just feel clear
i wish that you were
with me here.
when im getting quiet it just means im scared
wanna give it all up naked skin to bare
covered up tattoos telling a story of sin
asking when it can all end so the rest can begin
sometimes it feels good
sometimes it feels bad
try to see the bright side
but sometimes im just too sad
i just wanna look nice
i just feel clear
i wish that you were
with me here.
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4. |
believe
03:04
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waiting as the bus rolls up
fixing lipstick in the corner stall
pray to jesus to save my soul
theres a party down the road
im dying to go
kids around here couldnt give a shit
but their parents tell them im a sin
saying im something i shouldnt be
and itll go away if i just believe
so i put my faith in better things
i say my thank yous to the birds and trees
going back even if they spite me
to show that there is love if you look through the seams
theres love in everything...
so im drinking just to numb the pain
ive been harboring so long its just a thing
like the prayers that i said every night
but the lord doesnt care
cause he thinks hes always right
sometimes the good book it aint so good
sometimes the good book it aint so good
sometimes the good book it aint so good
sometimes im no good
and it aint so good.
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5. |
disaster
02:41
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im torn between
the things i want and what i have
maybe im better off alone
a place where i can understand
maybe nothing works out
and its all for a reason
i know how it feels
passing through every season
afraid of the future
regretting the past
feeling nothing can change
cause the hates all you have
i remember each bad time
more than the good
i see all of my friends
a lot less than i should.
i wish i could die
i know that i would
but i am such a coward
i cant do any good.
i cant do any good...
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6. |
motion
02:50
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im going out for a walk in these dark woods
shes showing me the way to the place where i finally could see
theres a future and its waiting for me
just need a spoonful of sugar baby
theres a future and its waiting for me
just need a spoonful of sugar baby
everything feels so far away
what else can life take?
everything feels so far away
i wanna see the inside of my guts
i wanna drink it down
i wanna see the blood
i want a kiss on the lips
i want a place thats my own
i want to know what its like
to find you as a home
i want to see all the of the streets
and all of the places ive been
from a pair of new eyes
so free of sin
i want to pray
because it was the right thing to do
but i dont believe in shit
i just believe in you...
do you believe in me too?
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7. |
tides
03:54
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theyve been saying that im doing bad things
theyve been blaming it on a bad upbringing
think i dont hear what theyve been saying
i think god doesnt hear me when i am praying
good ol johnny says dont say a fucking word
while hes leaving bed ashamed of my worth
lying naked in his childhood home
the walk of shame smelling of liquor and stoned
get a taxi maybe ill come back
but my feet are moving way too fast
im running out with arms wide open in the dusk
ill take my own life instead of losing what i love
instead of losing what i love
never seen the ocean tide rise
couldnt fathom holy ghosts in my sight
asking how could i be the one to blame
i know myself and i can carry the shame.
my head hangs low i got the world on my shoulders
mom says dont come home and dad thinks im a burden
cant pay all these bills piling up on the table
cant take enough pills to stop breathing by april
shoulders too broad
a voice too deep
cant find where i belong or escape what i see so clearly
shoulders too broad
a voice too deep
cant find where i belong or escape all the bad i see in me.
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8. |
spit
02:07
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can you spit in my mouth
need to figure some shit out
can you pull on my hair
i dont even care
i dont even care
can you kill me
cause theres been too much change
august has been fucked up
i just want things to stay the same
can you just grab me
throw me down say im worthless
say im nothing
sometimes i just need to hear it
remind me of my place
remind me of my faith.
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9. |
once feat. Mazzy Ghost
02:48
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tell me what you need
im in love
tell me what you need
and tell me only once.
cant catch a break
always falling down
taking makeup off
lying on the ground
feel your heart
pounding through the walls
feeling everything
but still nothing at all
i dont wanna hear the excuses
i dont wanna hear what your doing
cause i cant stand that youre far away
wanna forgive but i cant forget a thing
so just tell me what you need
and ill do what i can
ill be the one you want
i can keep a promise
just tell me what you want
so i can prepare for the pain
for when things get fucked
and you walk away
i dont wanna say everything is fine
i just wanna give in and fucking die
i dont wanna say everythings okay
cause its hard to hold it in
when youre next to me.
tell me that i dont need that
but i want it
standing in the back of the party
i wish i could stop it
i feel catatonic
burden on my shoulders
i just feel exhausted
burden on my shoulders
whats it really worth when your gone
easy to get lost
with the pressure on
tell me that i feel that
but you want to
tell me what you need
cause i get you
everything you try to say
i turn it right back
i cant get rid of it
got blood on my hands
its time to work it out
but no matter where i am
looking for my phone
but i dont worry not at all
tell me why
tell me what you need
if i fucking say it
i can finally breathe
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10. |
burnt
03:16
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take me
i am nothing
burn me
to flame
i cant change anything
i cant.
take me
i am nothing
sacrifice me
in flames
i cant change anything..
leave me
i am nothing
just a waste of your space
i cant be anything
i cant.
hate me
i am nothing
just a burden you face
i cant change anything
i cant.
see me
i pray for something
just a face with a name
but you will never change
wont you?
so hate me
i pray for something
just to be who i am
but i cant change anything
i cant.
so kill me
i am nothing
in your eyes im the same
i cant change anything
i cant.
so hate me
i am fucking nothing
just a waste of your space
i cant change anything
i cant.
so see me
i am something
just a face with a name
but you will never change
wont you?
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11. |
18
02:44
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getting lucky in the front seat outside of brittanys
feeling tired and im fucked up at some party
everyone thinks that im so fun but im crying
cant talk about this thing i feel like dying
i think im dying
cause when youre eighteen you feel so seen
the world made a place for you
when youre eighteen i was so scared
i was not there looking for answers
where i shouldnt have been
where i shouldnt have been
when youre getting lucky in the front seat outside of brittanys
everyone thinks that im so fun but im crying
wish i was dying
wish i was...
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12. |
worrier
02:11
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call you on a thursday
to say things are weird
heading out of town
to some place west of here
been off my medication
for at least a couple days
was doing alright
now im not okay.
i hope i hear from you soon
hope you made it safe
ill be here waiting
but ill be okay.
i wont worry.
i look towards the stars in the sky
ive been waiting for you every night
thinking about all the good times
watching you laugh
watching you cry.
i look towards the sky
i needed you here at least tonight
and im thinking about all the sad times
when you were watching me laugh
watching me cry.
i wont worry.
i wont.
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13. |
ink
03:52
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try to understand
what people are saying
try to know the game
but im sick playing
god is a woman
and im a beast
made from shit in the water
just a disease
this years been fucked
23 i dont get it
jumping the gun
know where its heading
and its no good
inked 666 on my arm to prove i can live with mistakes
paid penance for things ive done to see what it would take
sleeping all night but having bad dreams
watching the past and the torment it brings
i wanna change things for me
i wanna blame things on me
inked 666 in my arm
to prove i can live with mistakes
starting up all of this shit
just so i could walk away
inked 666 in my arm
to prove i can live with mistakes
said youre not a kid anymore
its time to grow up and be safe
but i cant be safe
i cant be saved
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